Yellow, not green!

We finally had our much anticipated regroup with Dr S today. It went by pretty quick and was sort of anti-climactical. I mean I obviously knew, basis the test results, what he was likely to say but somewhere our last failure has left me so wary I was prepared for the worst.

He started by discussing our test results and I believe he mentioned the word ‘good’ when describing my ovarian reserve even though my FSH is borderline high (10.3) and my AMH is below what they consider normal for my age at about 1.4-1.5 (mine’s 1.3). APA testing revealed only one slight elevation on the IgM (mine was 13, normal’s <11) so he said I did not need any blood thinners (interestingly this is something he told us on our first phone consult itself without any testing!)… phew! Uterine x-ray showed an AFC of 13 and normal blood flow to ovaries all of which is good. DH’s numbers also look good with his motility at 55% even though morphology is low at 2% (he did remind us that they use very strict criteria so, with 4% being the normal, this wasn’t too shabby). His sperm DNA fragmentation results will still take another week or so to come in.

So, he is sticking with his earlier prognosis and his recommended protocol for me is

****drumroll****

EPP–Estrogen Priming Protocol

He also wants to add in a growth hormone (saizen??) and probably an antagonist to prevent premature ovulation. He thinks we should wait on taking a call whether to do embryo banking or not depending on how the ER goes. Anything above 6 eggs and we should not need to bank, according to him.

We asked him a few questions which he patiently answered. He will be using a double trigger for me (HCG/ Lupron) and closely monitoring estrogen levels even though I am unlikely to hyperstimulate. When I asked him how I can improve egg quality he asked me if I was taking the supplements prescribed by them and I said no, I am taking then of my own accord. He told me to ask my nurse for a list and then hung up with the promise that a nurse would contact us soon to discuss scheduling.

So, from the above, it would seem that this went pretty well, right? Well, perhaps its the exhaustion from last evening’s yoga class but truth is, I don’t feel too spirited somehow. Perhaps because I am still, somewhere in the back of my mind, coming from a DE perspective whereas he was pretty clear right from the get go that I should try again with my own eggs. Perhaps because I was anticipating getting rejected by them basis my AMH (which had been much lower at 0.48) and my FSH (which I had never tested before). Or perhaps because I just don’t trust my luck anymore! I kept asking K whether he thought we’re in and he said of course silly girl, this is it; we will be cycling at CCRM.

Really?

All I could think about was one strange comment Dr S made–something about this being a yellow light, as opposed to a red one. Why not green, my mind asked? I categorically asked him if there was any further testing to be done or any issues to resolve before we could start and he said no, it all looks good. Then why yellow? K reasoned with me saying that he is probably meant that about the whole process, especially since we made no chromosomally normal embryos last time. He’s probably right. Perhaps I am just being silly and over-thinking things (surprise surprise!).

The nurse is yet to call. I hope she gets in touch with us soon. I need to see my calendar to believe this is real!

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