6dp5dt

I’m a wreck. I thought I would be all zen waiting for my beta through this 9 day wait. But I’ve been obsessing over symptoms like a crazed freak. I don’t feel much which is really bringing me down. My breasts are just not getting sore (and they always do on natural cycles!) despite the copious amounts of progesterone I’m pumping in via PIO and Endomet.rin suppositories. I’ve had some ridiculously bad and extremely painful constipation (TMI, sorry!), I’ve been feeling bloated and gassy on and off with some light cramping. I suppose you could call these symptoms only I know the meds can mostly have these side effects.

My beta is scheduled for this Sunday but since it’s super tough to find a lab that will do it on Sunday, I will probably go in for a blood draw on Monday. That leaves us with the conundrum–do we test at home or not? I haven’t even bought any HPTs yet. I had truly thought I would be able to hold out till the beta but I am rapidly going insane. I keep bursting into tears, feeling like utter crap about the fact that I do not ‘feel’ anything. I am deathly scared of testing and seeing that terrible stark whiteness. Yet, I don’t know how I can survive these 3.5 days.  I’m reminding myself again and again that God has not led me here only to abandon me. He has my back and I need to trust and have faith.

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5 thoughts on “6dp5dt

  1. Oh…go buy some tests and start peeing on them RIGHT NOW…it will be positive…I know it! Good luck! NOW 👍6 days is fine to start with five day hatching…do it!!

  2. You would be at 11 d today…maybe test tomorrow as it would be almost definitive? I understand being terrified of the blank space too though.

    Keeping fingers and toes tightly crossed for you. Hang in there!

  3. Thinking of you and really praying you get some good news in a few days. 5AA you can’t get a more beautiful blast!

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